After Death Of My Son
December 24, 2008 by irene1601
Love is all I sought, I never was taught, the world seemed lonely and cold. Even though life was tough, I never gave up, I saw my life as a full cup…
I was shocked and amazed when I realized in a daze, what I was looking for I found in me. I had made my own little family and became a full time mother of two. I gave to them everything I had longed for, not knowing if it was right; I loved them with all of my might.
God had blessed me with two cute little angels, but he had called one home, leaving my cup feeling empty. I wondered if I had done something wrong, was it because I was a bad Mom?
But the blessing was clear, when God wiped away my tear, I have done nothing wrong, Arya wanted to come home, his love for you was full grown, no need for him to stay. His journey to earth was short and sweet, yes.. his life was brief, and he did not want you to grieve. But instead to rejoice in his love he gave you by choice. He selected you to be his Mom; he knew you could handle the stress of losing a son. He knew that you would understand, that even though you carried him, pampered him and held his hand, he was not yours to keep…
Our children can tell, when they are ready as well, to call and decided to go home. No matter what, Arya still loves you as much, your sanity is your own…
Believe it or not, and life is our say and no one can tell us how or when or if we should stay. So don’t be distraught when a loved one chooses to stop, living their life here in this way. They really didn’t die, they just can’t be seen by our eyes, but can always be felt in our hearts…
Death is not a device to make you think twice, it is our vehicle to travel back home. No one is dead, for they live on instead, with no boundaries, inflictions, or sorrow. No need to be sad, because that was God’s plan, to let you decided your tomorrow. He will love you anyway, even if you decided to stay, Your destiny is in your own hands. Whatever your need, no need to look further than thee, cause you are your own best friend…
Tomorrow is yours, not matter what occurs, it is all what you think it to be. No one can be blamed, if you are feeling shame, it is what you have asked for you see. Nothing outside can replace what’s inside, your knowledge and power comes from within…
Stop looking for someone to replace your numb, nothing can be undone. You will have great friends when you stop feeling abandoned, you must first be what you demand. Remember your master plan, to have and to hold all the good you can, to share and to bare without a care, because your feelings are all you really own anywhere…
So take it from me, a mother who has lost plenty, that life here on earth is our choice. And when were done, we will rejoice with our loved ones, who have been living in God’s Grace by their choice…
